Yesterday was a tough day!

Yesterday morning I had to break the news to mom that she would not be living with us anymore.I had my mini "breakdown" when I went to get her from the caregiver yesterday morning on our way to the facility.  I explained that the "Dr." had called and had determined that "we" needed more help than we had to take good care of her. She was mad at the idea of him "making" us do this and she was definitely less than pleased with me for going along with it. 

We had visited a week earlier to have a quick evaluation and fill out some paperwork, she thought she was just there to talk to the nurse. As we pulled into the facility she had no recollection of us ever being there.

My Husband,brother and daughter helped move furniture and hang pictures. She sat and was grumpy even when the nurses tried to humor her with lunch, ice cream and an art project. 

I feel so blessed that we were able to find a woman to be mom's friend for the last 2 years... it allowed her to stay with us so much longer that she would have...
I feel remorse that I can no longer handle her needs yet relief that she is able to go to a place right near the house and has gotten very good recommendations. The Regional nurse just happened to be there that day and she said we had made a "Very good choice"... So hopefully this will be the case.

It was surreal last night not having to be "on watch" or have bedtime duty let alone not having to getup at 5:40am  to take her to the bathroom.  I can see that it is going to take some time to not feel like I need to be doing something.  Today I went through all her clothes and "Goodwilled" 3 bags full...

I am headed back up there today to take a few more items and see how she is doing.... I am honestly a bit apprehensive about my visit... I hope it doesn't stir her up.

I am sure that this will be one of the few times I will blog for the next several months unless something truly interesting occurs... until then thanks for listening!